Trust
Have you ever been in a situation where you wish you could just knock a bit of sense into some one's brain?
If you have, you may understand how I'm feeling right now...completely helpless.
I currently know someone full of potential to do something huge in life. Yet, I've watched this person make choices that have not only hurt themself, but those around them...
The potential is still there, but it has been hidden away.
All throughout the journey this person has gone through, I've been praying for them, and I've really struggled because to me it does not seem like my prayers have been answered.
But you know what, every prayer I've prayed HAS been answered. Do I see the answer, no. Will I see the answer I'm waiting for, I honestly don't know. But I do know one thing... God knows best.
It's hard coming to the place where the heart and mind fully trust that God is in control.
Growing up in a strong Christian home, I learned that God knows everything, and knows what is best for everyone. And it is the absolute truth. Yet, since I like to know everything about what will or will not happen, I tend to be a bit of a control freak, and that's where I've had trouble. I know God is in control, but I've wanted things to go the way I think they should go, and so I have a hard time leaving it in God's hands. But reality is God is in total control.
God knew what would happen with this person I know. He knew I'd struggle with watching some of the decisions that were/are being made. Yet HE knows what is best for my life, and what is best for this person's life. And in reality, it all comes down to trust.
Over the past couple of weeks I have finally, after a long year and a month, come to a place of actually trusting that all will be well. The situation with the person I know is still scary, because the outcome is uncertain...I don't want this person to make a decision that will cause hurt and pain to themself. Yet I've made a decision to TRUST that no matter how it looks right now, God is doing something amazing. I may not physically see anything right now, but HE is doing something.
Trusting is a process. It isn't perfected in one day. Trusting is a choice to believe that no matter what, God is up to something good.
